| A whole lotta shits happend... |
[30 Oct 2005|08:55pm] |
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Wow, alots happpend the last month n a half......... well here it is.. im no longer with nick, things were good for a little while, and then went bad.. He thinks im wierd because im close with my family.. but i love how close my family is, is there somthing wrong with hanging out and talking with ur folks? His family isnt close really at all and so he just cant understand.. Family is the most important thing to me.. and i dont need to be w/somone whos gonna talk down about me nor my family.. so yea.. um... Nazar came back into the picture in the begining of october.. and now we are seeing how things go.. Things have ben goin good, he seems to have changed alot, especially how he acts with me, and even looks at me... i think he actually might no what love is now.. but we'll see.. only time will tell.. OH and aiden is commin early!! so the doctor is thinking... lets hope! she said she thinks hes commin around christmas!! im excited :) and i no i cant wait to get wasted!! lol.. its ben almost a year since ive done anything.. and it seems like forever :( i just need ta get out and have a good time after hes born because its been sooooooo long.. and i have almost 2 months ta go.. and im so missorable now.. every movment he makes, i feel it.. and there not all nice ones.. alot of em hurt, and theres some days i cant really even walk because im in so much pane ... but ya.. im gonna go for now... peace
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[22 Sep 2005|03:56pm] |
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I'm soo sick :( had a scare today so i went to my OB and got checked out.. Baby is okay:) thank god! But im sooo shakey, and im burning up, severly dehydrated... it bites.. but ima go lay down, my dr. bed restred be for 4 days.. so i gotta go get sum rest.. so peace
"B"
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| I am fucking exhausted! |
[18 Sep 2005|06:36pm] |
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Today has ben a looooooooooooooong ass day for me! I had to register for my baby shower,and boy is that alota work... way overwelming.... it took forever, and im sooooo tired, and i got soo frickin crabby when i got home i went to sleep, but only slept for an hour cuz nick called cuz he was grocery shoppin, and wanted to no if there was anything in particular I've ben craving.. how sweet :) but im still tired.. and im about to go to nicks house in a little bit and proly pass out.. I gotta work tomorrwo at the hospital which totally blows, but oh well. Oh! and I got a 2nd job.. workin with Todds mom at her day care.. I love it.. its alota fun :) Tiring, but fun.. so yeah im really pooped, so im outa here..
-B-
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| And were clear? |
[17 Sep 2005|08:52pm] |
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Okay once again i forgot about my journal for a bit... but heres the scoop :) Me and nick are still together:) its a sticky situation but were getting threw it.. i love em :) sooo ya nazar and i are friends now.. he realized what an ass he has ben, and he's bbeing real cool about the pregnancy.. hes actually wanting to be apart of it now.. which is fine with me.. So.. we talk now, i just really wanna be on good terms with him, especially for Aiden's sake.. Yup... so i have 3 more months to go!!! Aiden's ben kickin the crap outa me lately :) I love it.. hehe.. its the most weirdest feeling.. Rosalyn turned 20 on the 5th of Sept.!! Happy Birthday to Roz!! Gettin old you old fart!!!@@#@$@#!!! haha peaka jack is a hooker.. well im off to go chill with rosalyn... we might go find the lake that is behind the hore.. so peace out..
-B-
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[01 Sep 2005|03:49pm] |
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Okay... its bena while since ive wrote in this thing.. i always manage to forget about it some how.. anyways ya so heres the scoop on whats ben goin on since last entry.. Me and nick were dating and all that.. then he told me he wanted to offically be back together.. so yeah... but everything has ben soo fucking rocky, i dont no whats goin on. I love him, but i really think my situation is a little toooo much for him. so ya.. oh!! and I'm havin a BOY!!! found that out may 17th :) Little Aiden is on his way!! 3 1/12 more months :) well i had taco bell and now im sick so Ima go to sleep.. so peace
"B"
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[30 Jul 2005|09:29pm] |
Well the last week has ben interesting.. and confusing.... have i mentioned nerve racking? lol ive ben hangin out with nick alot this week, and umm.. yeah.. I cant even explain it :) but its all good... thats all i can say.. I just got back from his house a lil bit ago.. we just hung out, and then he ahd ta go to work... I worked today.. that was prettty shitty.. hmmm welll im goin now..
"B"
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| So get your pooper scooper cuz the niggas talkin shit |
[25 Jul 2005|08:09pm] |
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Just a small introduction to the E'Funk error, every day of my life I take a glipse in the mirror, and I see Mutha Fuckas tryn to be like me, Ever since I put it down with the DRE~ Grand Slam, Yes I am, Kickin up dust and I dont give a damn, Jacks's a murdera, And i'm feelin all guilty, You no from my skills I'm bout ta be filthy haha yea thats right! thats from Snoop Dogg :)
Um.. okie and.. who's Anthony? Where did Drop Dead Fred go?? I'm lost can I come to your house? or.. maybe I'll just take a walk down in the -D- Shiot.. you dont even no me, so peace out bitch, my butt has an itch, Roz is a bitch and she dont give a shit! And im the mini me, who always gotta pee, if you dont care for me, then hang with Jonny B.. cuz fuck the police and the KKK, i get arrested in the D amost every day, token up on some bud, with a homeless man, and everytime he gets a beer, he's like Awww hell yea... Thats the end of my story sorr E to say, Gotta call it quits, but only for today.. I'll be back on tomorrow with some more good news.. I'ma read this and get myself all confused.. peace out
"B"
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| Thats a big O tittie! |
[22 Jul 2005|03:48pm] |
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Yesterday I hung out with Nick.. it was cool.. a lil akward.. but it was nice.. we hung out @ his house. and then we went to his mom's.. that was also a lil awkward.. then later on that nite we went to Rob bell's to chill for a bit... after theat we went back to Nick's to BBQ with brandy, jeff, and Flava... so yeah yesterday was fun.. it was nice to see Nick again.. His crib is phat.. He's got real good taste :) haha.. yeah anyways.. im off to go put in a app. @ red lobster now.. then im goin ta hang with brandy and nick.. peace out
"B"
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| I live in a tent and eat pintos |
[20 Jul 2005|04:38pm] |
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Yeah I'm so hungry! so i was listening to 99.5 which is a country station.. and guess waht i heard some hill-billy stalkin about??? He was like i live in a tent and eat pintos.. lol... what is that? haha thats good shit... i was just amazed when i heard that.. but ya anyways.. who's your daddy? and what kind of bonoccoa do YOU use? hmm.. is rosalyn a slut or a whore? Persobally i think shes both! okie well igotta go clean the house.. im out people!
"B"
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[20 Jul 2005|12:38am] |
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okie so today i worked till 6 then me and brandy wen to see stacy in the hospital to see her lil baby.. he is soooo preciouse!! I cant wait to have mine.. I talked to Nazar today.. he IM'd me and aske me how i was and how the appointment went... and we just started talkin from there.. I told him i dont hate hi,.. and im fine with being friends.. so were on good terms now.. which is whats best.. especially for the baby's sake.. but its nice not fighting with him anymore.. i guess were are better off friends.. it still hurts.. cuz i do still love him.. but i'll be okay.. well im gonna go for now... its like 1am.. and im beat..
"B"
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| I'm sittin here with my rocks.. |
[17 Jul 2005|03:05pm] |
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Um.. yeah im fuckin awsome! awww snap... today is the fraser fire works.. me and roz are goin and were gonna be meetin brandy, pimpford, and jasons gonna meet uus up there with shawn and all them peeps.. I am soo happy! like for real.. I'm not sad anymore.. I relaized that Nazar did me a favor by breaking up with me.. I'm so much happier without him, and i no that i will find somone who will love me and treat me the way i deserve to be treated.. I'm stil hott. even though im pregnant.. im still lookin pretty damn fine! lol.. i have so much energy rightnow i feel like ima burst! But yea.. rosalyn is outside smoking a cancer stick.. Yummy! I'm sapose ta be goin to stoney with corey tomorrow.. we'll see how that turns out.. Okie me and roz are gonnna go gut the basement.. peace
"B"
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| The lake is behind the horse? |
[13 Jul 2005|10:11pm] |
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WEll today hasnt ben so bad.. I met somone who looks alot like Kevin Federline.. and he's really sweet.. but im not gettin my hopes up.. i no its kinda soon.. but nazar's ass wont be commin around.. he made that very clear.. so I gotta move on sometime.. and if i find the right guy im not gonna pass em up. He knows im pregnant, and i told him the whole story, and he thinks nazars a coward, and he said well hey ya never no what will happen.. maybe things might turn out with us.. he said hes not afraid to be a dad.. he loves kids.. i was amazed.. completly shocked! lol yeah so um.. who knows whats gonna happen with that.. well im off for now.. gotta got o bed to wake up at 5:30 for work.. soo peace
"B"
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[13 Jul 2005|10:17am] |
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So the last few days have ben extremly hard for me.. But I'm not going to keep racking my brain tryin gto make sense of all this... All i no is my baby's father is a coward. So anyways.. On Saturday me and rosalyn went to Todd's house.. a bunch of our old friends were there.. it was nice to see everyone.. Then on Sunday Me and Rosalyn went to stoney with Todd and Clinton.. it was fun.. we played this frissbee game thats saposeivly like golf in a way.. then after a couple hours of that we went on a paddle boat.. We had a blast! Me and Rosalyn felt the baby moving when we were on the paddle boat.. it was so cool.. and then yesterday me and rosalyn went out to eat with alyssa at Juliano's some itlian restraunt.. yummy! And I went on a walk with Stacy last nite.. she's due to have her baby today actually.. but i think she's gonna be late.. but who knows! soo yeah thats all i have ta say for now so ima go..
"B"
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[11 Jul 2005|02:37pm] |
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So the day after I broke up with Nazar.. we tried working things out.. he said he didnt want to break up.. so i said ok, i really didnt want to either. then a few days later.. he told me that he wasnt inlove with me anymore and that he didnt want to be with me. What kind of man leaves his pregnat girlfriend? He's a fucking coward.. I'm hurting so much inside its unbarrable. I dont understand how all of a sudden his feelings changed. like over nite. This whole time he's ben tellin me he wants to be with me, he loves me, wants to have a family and move in together.. and now he does a complete 180 and leaves me. Im so sad.. and depressed.. I dont no what to make of this. well im goin to lay down.. im so sick to my stomach from all this..
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| What a scarry day! |
[08 Jul 2005|02:30pm] |
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So today I went into work this morning.. and im a house keeprr @ a hospital.. so while iw as cleaning a patients room.. all of a sudden my vision got really really blurry i couldnt even see.. and i was soo dizzy, and extremly hott.. and my hearing was all messed up.. it sounded like i had ear plugs in.. it was crazy.. so i stood there for a second and it kept gettin worse.. then a couple of nurses came uip to me and sat me down and started taking my blood pressure and testing my sugar levels which were both low.. and i was on the verge of fainting.. it was nutz.. then they had some ppl put me on a strether and sent me to the ER... So Ive ben at the hospital all morning and afternoon.. and then after taking a bunch of blood work, and runnin IV's threw me. they said i could go home but gets lota rest.. so yea.. that was my scarry thign for the day.. they said the baby is fine.. that pregnant women can faint in there 2nd trimester. well ima go for a bit.. maybe I'll write more lata..
"B"
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| Today sucked |
[06 Jul 2005|09:44pm] |
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Okay.. today I broke it off with Nazar because he's just not ready to be in a relationship.. he's just so immature. and acts like hes still in high school. He didnt even care that we broke up.. shows how much he saposivly loved me.. yeah ok... I'm just so sad cuz he's just put me threw so much pain and stress... and I cant deal with it anymore.. He didnt even act like i was his gf.. But I'll be fine.. its gonna be hard for me to deal with it.. because i do care and love him.. but he said he's always ben immature since i met him and he wont change for me or anyone.. You'd think he'd wanna grow up somtime.. especially now taht were havin a baby.. but i guess he's choosing not too.. hes havin way to much fun partying and acting like a kid.. But anyways.. Ill quit talkin bout it.. its depressing.. so ima go cuz i dont feel like writing anymore. im just so sad about all this im gonna go to bed..
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| shibby to the right.. shibbie to the left.. |
[05 Jul 2005|04:32pm] |
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Okay .. so umm shits still crazy.. which will proly be that way for like ever.. but guess what?? Last nite at like 7:30ish I felt the baby move for the 1st time!!! I'm soo excited.. I cant wait to pop it out.. haha So yeah.. i had a really shitty day at work today.. all them ignorent fucks!! I hate em.. Rosalyns gonna eat em!! and ima go get me a turkey! who said that? Woooo Billy.. ive lost my butt... has anyone seen it? shit shit shit.. i forgot the bonoccoa... wheres my bonocca??? Did Brendan steal my penis? Or did Rosalyn? I may never know.. So Today I am a chinese sailor man.. and tomorrow im going to be a buttler.. how cool is that! ew! guess waht? Rosalyn has a harry ass! haha im jokin Roz.. nope i change my mind.. Im not jokin.. fuck you and ur clu clux crew man! Fuck ur dad, and ur sister, and ur 2 cats! wait u dont have a sister.. okay scrtach that one.. but still.. i hate you! so u wanna go tot he beach this week? hoefully its noce out.. im sure it will be.. um.. ok so i joined this band because I love Gwar! And lucas.. ooo baby.. thats a fine piece of work! haha.. Empire records is great! ok so ima bounce.. peace
"B"
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| I am the subject for today :) |
[28 Jun 2005|10:23am] |
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Wow i totally forgot about my account on here.. haha.. i have 2 accounts and this one i happened to forget about for a while.. So.. yeah.. ima havin a baby :) uh huh this my shit all the girls stomp yo feet like this.. but yeah im 3 months and 1 week! Excited? yes indeed :) Cant wait ta pop muh baby out! SOO i think Rosalyns favorite color.. is GREEN! uh huh you no what im sayin.. Im sittin here bored .. not sure waht ima do today.. Rosalyn needs to get her butt in gear.. Shes cleaning her dads carpets and making a salad today.. Woo Hoo!!! How fucking exciting! Jeese how lame is that.. its 88 degress out there and Rosalyns washing carpets and making a salad.. Jesse! I only have one thing to say to that .... LAME LAME LAME!!! haha jk Roz.. but yeah that is kinda lame.. haha actually its really lame.. you need ta come hangout with me you whore! You nothin but a cheap lyin no good rotton for flushin embred over-stuffed ignorent brainless, dickless, hopeless, heartless, bug-eyed, stiff legged sack of monkey shit! hola euya <-- i no thats spelt wrong Holy shit! wheres the tylenol? But can somebody answer this question for me..... Who's Anthony? Who's Anthony? And her name was Casondra.. Game on! and.. were clear. So yeah anyways has anybody seen.. a dog dyed dark green? about 2 inches tall with a strawberry blonde fall, Sunglasses and a bonnet, And designer jeans with appliques on it? That dog brought me so much joy and that dog is Quiche Lorraine! Yeah um.. got a lil carried away with that one.. yummmm okay eith im hungry or muh baby is so ima go get some food... i made cup cakes yesterday! Let me tell ya there the fuckg greates! ok im out.. Peace
"B"
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| wow alot has changed since the last time i wrote in this thing.... |
[18 Feb 2004|09:37am] |
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WEll to start off I'm no loonger with Nick... it's a long and sad story and i dont wanna talk about it cuz I'll get sad.. so anyways.. Last nite me and stacy went over Rob's and had alota fun! We drank and i did a lil somthin somthin extra( got fucked up).. i had a ball.. I called into work today cuz i didnt get home till 6am this morning... but um... ya.. oh ya I am now recording back in the studio with Drama :) I'm so happy.. things are goin well for me... well when it comes to music.. other then that things are so freakin messed up! My life has ben changing like big time.. and everything in it.. its wierd how for sooo long u think things will be a certain way and you'lll spend forever with somone and then like poof.. everything blows up in ur face and is all messed up.. thats wahts happening in my life.. its pretty insaine and depressing.. so umm ima go now..
-Peace-
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| ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh |
[25 Nov 2002|12:36am] |
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Right now.. I'm in a pissy pissy mood.. I'm sad.. I'm mad..and I'm fucked up.... i went out with jack and ameet.. and smoked a joint.. woo hoo hehe okie im outa here.. Byeeeeeee
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